We never know what our future is, at any moment everything can change, this is life!

I want to write about this week, my friend Joel Brightbill fell asleep while driving hit a tree going 40 mph the air bags didn't open up, getting the news he was in very critical condition. I could feel his soul vacillate between worlds have Charlie Thom there holding the energy from the other side. I talked with his wife Pat  knowing she had to have that conversation letting him know how much she loves him but could except his decision to either stay or love him on the other side. He has had numerous surgeries after his accident 5 days a go today is his day of rest then on to more surgeries, possibly going to Stanford Hospital for reconstruction on his face. As my friend Holly (powerful healer) says Joel is a 24 hr guy who is in service to do what ever it takes to help others. In this picture he is building my lodge before going to build Charlie Thom's last lodge on the Sacramento River. Our friendship has had many twists and turns, for over 20+years from being in the Marble Mountain Wilderness for many days doing ceremony in all kinds of situation in all kinds of wilderness. It is like people who are not accustom to the true wilderness the wildness of it make do not make elaborate  altars. Joel knowing that mother earth is her own altar not needing many decorations but does like to be honored with respect and care. We would build a huge fire on the side of Spirit Lake almost feeling the power and strength of it roaring over our heads knowing that spirit created a safety that is beyond words or ability to even for us understand this is our altar our elements no frills just the real deal of water, earth, air and fire, feeling the spirit alive and respecting our work. He is an amazing person, he was going to take a few of us in this next summer in honor of the work we did there for many years, this saddens me that he will be in re-hab unable to do what he loves, knowing that in some ways it is our responsibility after Charlie Thom's passing to visit his altar in respect for him as a huge Medicine Man. Now all is up in the air for that journey?
  Also a wonderful woman Donna May is in the thrills of her writing her long awaited book still sitting on the shelf waiting fore editing. She made available as she branches out in non traditional therapist way, dream weaver gave an invite to either do a phone call or Skpe for 30 mins. calling it "psyches call.' During the call I asked her what are we doing here, "I am here to support your dreams" I am still almost speechless realizing that she really is available to be just support in a kind magical way. The call was amazing I am still a bit uncomfortable to switch rolls I am usually the supporter, so to have her bid for supporting me has given me a new energy. To  have Donna offer such generosity I not only appreciated her but trust in her sincerity and honesty which gives my soul the feeling of trust I have not had many offer so much. So that all being said, this week having that support I feel more positive and driven to know that in my emptiness the way will be made clear. " I also have been offered by 2 of my clients that want to help in anyway advanced guys for workshops or Quest they want to be included to do what ever necessary. I can feel the pot churning into an more apparent tapestry which having the store has not happened for  quite a while except for Vision Questing.
  Yesterday Mom & I went over to visit the Methodist Camp to check it out for the scheduled Vision Quest August 2-9, no snow, very little water. I am feeling the land calling to me I am waiting for the earth to give me a clear message of my next step with that land. I know the land there &  have a deep relationship so wondering which way that will go. When I started with Joel's terrible accident he was going to do the teaching of building lodge, so with him in his condition plus the water, fire potential everything is up in the air for the time being.
  Again Thank YOU Donna May plus my clients have been calling with such enthusiasm!

In this picture is Joel just before the last Lodge for Charlie Thom that night Charlie was taken to the hospital. Joel is always hard working great lodge leader!