Today is a day of expected changes after closing the store, consolidating a huge amount of debt paying a percentage with Freedom Debt Relief starting with 11 credit cards now owing on 1 with funds there to pay, not claiming bankrupty. Who would guess we would take a much-needed vacation after that mess, Going to Kona you ask how? Well the solution was keeping excerciseing, meditation, tapping and struggling with a very positive focus, writing from Magic Book just before sleep my 10 gratitude's for each day then taking my special rock thanking the most amazing things in each day. Now I want you to know this wasn't easy it took a strategy each day, to force my butt out to exercise each time when in fact I would rather eat cookies and drink coffee. I know in my heart of hearts I wouldn't have been able to get through it without these practises plus tapping Nick Ortner. I listened to different people Liza Nichols, Jack Canfield, Robert Allen, to name a few but realizing all of them had challenges but got through it, by sticking with it. I Safeway to have supply's. With the time change, I woke up early meditated in gratitude, tapped then got my butt in gear to get out and run/walk about 4 miles which are what I call the real deal work-shop. So as I ran I went through the last 12 yrs the good, bad and the ugly but understanding how being in such a struggle place it was almost impossible to create and move beyond. That God/Goddess did us a favor creating the scenario to make us get out, we still would have been struggling with ourselves and partly ego of, not wanting to give up. So now as I ran I felt my own resistance to letting it go, staying with the story but knowing it truly is a new beginning see this ocean and beach across from the condo a confirmation that I am in the right place doing the necessary clearing. So then I would go back after the run get my Mom walk for another 2 miles. When I ran would pass the gal in the picture Serita who I met on the plane each day we would chat about what our next adventure would be.
So now I am getting ready to write my ideas or stories since I am a story teller; like Carlos Castaneda, Maria Corellini, Lynn Andrews, not that I have an ego to write like them but I would like it to be that experiential experience. While on the plane I was reading Jack Canfield's, "The Success Principles" & Lynn Andrews, "Writing Spirit". While reading each being valuable for very different reasons getting back into affirmations, and the medicine wheel about writing each direction which is a medicine of mine as well, using the right brain, plus using the medicine way to accomplish my goals. A magical combination that is achievable showing people if I can do this you certainly can, but the main objective is showing up.........each morning I would give myself permission to not run but just go out and walk if I wanted to that even in this beautiful place my mind would say hey I ran for 4 days in a row give me a break, then I would do my thing of just go out. I was blessed each morning of coming in with the sun rising confirming this was definitely a new beginning in all ways. So I got into the blue ocean, enjoyed being on the beach, good food, hanging out, realizing in my struggles I forgot to dream. Am I too old or lost too much money to have the ability to start over once again, the answer, of course, is yes~
I got back with an easy flight, nice drive home, now back to Life 101 with much more inspiration! Thank you, God/Goddess my son's for paying for our flights and their wives to give us an ability to dream once again no matter how old or beat up we were.
