Shhh........waiting for our Tessa!

Life has changed now being a grandmother, and GiGi being a Great Grandmother using GG for shorting it. We have moved into an elder spot but also being wiser I hope for that. This Holiday Season came easier the store was blessed with wonderful people doing their shopping here with joy. When I was a little girl some-one asked me what did I want to be when I grow up I said," a gift wrapper." Each time I would wrap a gift I would tell the story plus add many blessing to the big bows I put on. When my sons were little we always went to the Nutcracker at the Opera House is San Francisco, so in the back round at the store Xmas songs playing. We had our harpist Patti come play the store was filled with JOY and stories. This is Mom's house ready for Tessa. I usually have the festivities at my house but her place is larger a changing of the guards for our family. In our family the food is very important it is a medicine of sorts and blessings to feed people so with that our menu reflects much thought. On Xmas day Mom and I watched," Julie, Julia" made a gourmet menu of sorts, having a quiet pensive time. I was reminiscing of those days when my children were little with all the confusion and bustle now we are in that phase that I had heard about but am living. I wrote my step-brother Bob saying don't you miss those days......I know he does. ( life has changed for him) So what does this blog mean well in a short story being with or without family this year is a huge awakening to our roles in our family and the bigger family. Today my friend Steve was in we chatted about how it is to take care of yourself, not being in denial rather then isolating and not even knowing you are. He is being very vulnerable which makes it easier to be intimate with him and that is what this time is about. I feel such a blessing with people taking their walls down and opening to the new Now. It is no mistake that there are Angels walking this earth through these changing times, magically miracles are happening. We are the ones that they are talking about it is our time to rise being in humility to open our hearts for that profound healing that is necessary. Don't be discouraged if some are still in that drama earth cycle just keep the focus on peace and joy. I don't want to be one of those blogs that preaches on about stuff. I just want to share the heart felt family and grand family we are part of. Yesterday Jan mentioned wanting to go into the Marble Mountains this next summer in July so I have made a few calls checking on that seems like it might happen. A huge role of initiation for us. She wants to take her son, the last time we were there together she was pregnant with this son. I took my boys for the rites of passage to the wilderness. This wilderness is where the Karuk tribe would do Vision Quest for becoming a leader. Jan & I have been blessed to know about the power of this area through our Medicine Elder Charlie Thom. I chatted with another powerful woman Cora she says she and her son Chaley if possible will go. As this idea percolates I will write about the power of such a trip with these amazing women. So that is what is birthing during this Holiday Season no accidents here. We of course would have horses take in our gear but walk in the 15+ miles a shaman's journey, this excited me beyond my wildest dreams. I have been attempting to rope in different people since we have had the store unsuccessfully but now it seems as the energy is there. I am always surprised as to how this magic shows up we can never really guess it is definitely the mystery unfolding.

Winter Solstice in Mt Shasta

Well another year has gone by and here we are facing ourselves once again. Hey how is that working for you? There is so much to say yet so little. I am once again writing morning pages, I realized how many great things have come from journaling. I know that we are meant to be more intimate with those that are in our circles. It is a time to reach new heights in our spirituality. It is a completion of many things experiencing a certain mount of grief. What was all that about? We are in new territory all you had to do is acknowledge the Eclipse to know something is here to change. We need to do more be more authentic being our true self, not protecting out of fear but be that true adventure for these times.


I want to thank all of you who frequent our store and our lives, it is an honor and a blessing.

We are having a fire this evening honoring you in Gratitude for all you are doing and giving!

Our Angel Patrick Robinson's Living Tree Decorated!

This is a picture of my running partner's Evelyn's son's honoring as our current Angel Patrick during this time and always in our community here. He is not forgotten!

Miracles, Angels and Completion?

Between the Winter Solstice diving deep into what was this year about and being touched by these Divine beings with wings we are in our own dilemma of moving into those miracles. This week has been a turning point for many, feeling what feels like depression when actually it is that divine turning a corner of what we are creating in those miracles. Between our Angels, Mother Mary and Sister Teresa making themselves available we doubt our own belief is this really happening. We are receiving so many confirmations of faith and surrender to the Divine. Just when we feel we are lost one of these appears. In this time of the year we are especially sensitive to ancestors, and those non realities thinking it is something else they are communicating with us big time. I know if you have been that person who has helped in any way of souls passing they are definitely wanting you to know that though they are in another place they want to have communication. Some of us are the ones who hold that energy so they can safely go across that bridge into another land but once you have held that energy for them they continue to pray for you. I know most people seem more in tune to the Day of the Dead or Halloween however when the veils of darkness are upon us we are much closer to other worlds. Often it takes us to question am I nuts, well you are half way there always questioning sanity is part of being a sensitive. I am always telling clients that before we were admired for that connection understanding what a challenge it can be. This winter Solstice started much earlier then Dec. 21 with an eclipse, wanting to be either resting or not sleeping was the dive inward feeling some despair but in reality it is the time for meditation and exercise to stay grounded not taking these feelings to heart. Understanding the completion of many years so there is an air of grief for finishing up a grand task, plus starting a new one. We don't know what that a new is yet but we know we have a contract that needs to be completed. So hold on tight for 2011 to really get those projects off the ground, or out of you mind manifesting them with ease. I want to encourage you to enjoy what Holiday Season. I have been told, "I can't get into this Holiday Season," again there is that grief around it. Just start writing your gratitude list, then shift that energy towards appreciation raising our vibration to the new NOW! We are doing a great review then we don't really see the divine plan but once in gratitude we begin to realize there are no accidents. We are in the right place making new choices while completing old. Pat yourself on the back if you are reading this you are one of the Angels walking earth at this time. A HO to you!
Also a note our mountain has been so beautiful this week other worldly illuminated with a glow that is so powerful. I will attempt to get a photo of it before our storm coming in. Blessings!

Tribute to our Furry Friend Charlie!

Well today started out in a dilemma, my Mom's kitty had sneaked out of her place either by me or her...She told him always you are an indoor cat but he wanted to explore the outside. She saw him last night attempting to coax him inside but his personality is very stubborn to his dismay. I went over this am to search which I did only when leaving finding his beautiful white body warm but his neck was broken. He knows nothing about outside found a warm place in an engine. Our furry friends create such healing. We wrapped him in a towel taking him to my ceremonial yard to put him to rest. I have done such things with my son's too many times to remember, but here I am with my Mom with her beautiful kitty. Life here in Mount Shasta has twists and turns that is challenging to say the least. Each person arrives with great expectation of their spiritual life, then in a few months admit they are put through the wringer. There is a great direction but then seemingly striped of everything you think you know about our spiritual life, grasping at trust and faith there is a bigger story. We continue to receive guidance hoping in our hearts of hearts that there is a miracle given by the Angels waiting to happen. I come in our store say a prayer to the Angels raise the violet flame, in gratitude. I then put on the 1008 names of the Divine Mother by a wonderful Swami of Amma's. We do what ever ritual we are drawn to do to continue to raise the store's and our vibration. I was talking to another wonderful spiritual woman who had a business for a short while now handling the fall out of having to close, with bill collectors. We come here with the enthusiasm of being part of a great community then each person still loving it but I hear the disappointment of the challenges or bankruptcy or breaking up of the relationship or losing my Mom's beloved furry friend it is definitely different then what we arrive thinking. Rest in Peace dear Charlie. (He is in the corner behind the lodge and Quan Yin with a rock on his resting place)

Happy Holy Days and Close of 2010!

Now here we are wondering what and the heck happened to this year. I feel we have really made great strides to achieve great rising our vibration to that Golden Age. We can feel there is a huge change but it has yet to manifest in what ever way we think. It is a very exciting time to be alive, we said we would be here and finally it is our time.
I have gotten information from so many feeling the draw inward not really realizing that the Winter Solstice is early by a few weeks. It is also creating obstacles that are seeming like Mercury in Retrograde which doesn't happen till Dec. 10. My suggestion is enjoy the draw inward, keep up the meditation, exercise is a must......I know it seems like I want to come home sit my self on the sofa, drink my tea/chocolate/coffee/or? but in reality that sofa will wait for you to finish the much necessary release that exercise gives you during the challenging energetic time.
Also tonight is a ceremony for Gita I want to send her all the blessings for her continued growth, empowerment into being that dynamic teacher she is. I also want to pray for my dear sister Christine and brother Marco for all the blessings they have given me and my mom. I know this will be a power house of a ceremony. I send all our blessings to each person from the door way in to the door way out. I also bless all of us who wanted to be there that our blessings go far and wide to support this beautiful ceremony we all are blessed to have as our medicine. A HO!

Holiday Season and close of 2010