We are all in the tale spin of the washing machine called life. It is an interesting time of self moving. We have interesting people coming in our store. A wonderful fellow from England sharing his knowledge with us. I made some flower essence for him our completion of roses which was great with sweet intentions for him and his friend. Life can be so easy and uplifting, then it can be so challenging in the same time. When life goes smoothly it makes it easy to enjoy but when we feel like we are swimming up stream that is another story. In 1992 in Vedic Astrology I entered Rahu which lasts for 18 yrs which is coming out in 2010, what I got it means is each step has that pull of what is going on. I started a relationship which lasted 6 yrs., it definitely has it's challenges. We gave up a business, but when to Findhorn a plus. Each has shown more of who I am what I am able to rise above, even in the spiritual challenges. Then bought this building that had it's challenges and now with the current banking there would be no way we could get a loan but we did. We ended up having some construction that we hadn't the finances for but we did it. Moving each step of the way, then we were able to re-fi with a great guy from Wells Fargo Michael Rivera.......then our renter left just as the market was clear down from the banks last year. We are still here hanging on so Rahu has taken it's course with me. I have glimmers of an easier way coming and I believe that too. I love the Hick's Ester claims it well worth keeping in the Vision, Go-Gratitude is another absolutely positive move to stay in. I love the clients I have I just need more, when people travel through I do reading suggesting phone sessions at a reduced rate, partly it is once we have that connection it is great to continue maybe once or twice a month. The people I do that with is amazing results for them, well worth the time and money. I see more of that happening but in the mean time the sooner thing shift the better for our store and our lives. Mom is at an age where she shouldn't have these challenges she is in our store to give her wisdom and insight. We have an Amma altar envisioning in us being in a flow of ease, so when we see her tomorrow at Devi Baba we are praying once again about that shift. When we had the construction and financial burden of it all she would say NO Worry.......No Worry, that would ring in our ears. Each step of the way she has been in our energy, now we need that last shift for our beautiful store and clients.....Life with ease and beauty to do our work. For Mom to be able to enjoy this time. I write about so many things, mantra's, women's groups, (my group has been going for 3yrs which everyone is fabulous) We had a few have wild deals that took our group to another level of partly confusion then more insight. I don't think that most realize the level of commitment and intimacy that really happens, if they did they would realize the importance of integrity that they owe to me and the group. When people miss behave or just drop off, there is a time of churning that goes on. I feel that we are women envisioning and dreaming in such a deep way that when that isn't respected it is such a shame. Our groups are confidential but also such wonderful deep work the mutual respect for the work is a must. I really love being there holding the energy for great things, it is some of my best work. People also are beginning to realize that phone work is so deep. I remember many years ago when I started doing that it wasn't popular, now things have changed. It can be really positive, conference calls are great for groups, so much can be done while you are sitting in what ever space, your car, at home, in the woods etc. So easy to do this work. I am up in the middle of night not sleeping pondering this all, so look forward to my writing on some of my adventures, when my book comes out about my first teachers, native American successes and challenges, what is really is about the Red Road, the Great White Brotherhood some of my first encounters, Crystal healer....the non reality that is as real as anything. Magic that can be created even in Rahu. Rahu made me become more determined in so many things including exercise, work ethics, being that nature women not really thinking anything was impossible endure no matter what. I got that card from the Wisdom Deck of the Crones which i found myself a bit resistance, because I feel like I have Endured....so why do I have to get a card, but there was this woman drinking tea with a toning bowl behind her with Mt Shasta in it which looks like me. My first journey to Mt Shasta in 78 connecting with an Avatar continuing my journey with our store. Then for my before turning 60 I Native American Church meeting praying in Gratitude about my life the firer keeper Corey gave me a bowl like that for my healing work, which blew me away any I use. So I am looking forward to a more
positive 2010. I feel we are ending the year with more insight and need to envision the good things even when we are challenged with our current situations. This week I spend an enormous time with banking,even wrote a letter to Congress about how terrible it is for small business, a part of Rahu I can't ignore. Credit Cards limits lowered when there are no late payments to such low deals just above by such a small amount of what is owed. I talk to people hanging on but having no way to proceed when there are in the red, no lending no matter what equity........plus a certain arrogance around it. Then there are some kind souls who understand but their hands are tied, even non-profit don't want to touch you unless you want to hire new employees now that would be great however when you can't pay yourself how in the world can you take a grant to get employees when what business's need is relief around consolidating existing debt at lower interest so we can get fluid. Yes being positive marketing moving in more advertising what ever it takes is great, but these other things are so time consuming to the small business, I am glad Mom can handle the store while I am doing this........damn Rahu.
