Well this has been a great completion year with new beginnings! Sometimes feeling the grief of completion unsure of what is really beginning. We have felt the change in Mother Earth shaking up our reality of where earth quakes are or hurricanes seeing earth is in charge of making us make new choices. I feel that some of our economic challenges has forced us to look at what is really important what relationship do we need to nurture or let go of, also to stay postive no matter what . So our family and community is actually larger but the firm choice of where do we put our prana life energy. This year our Shasta Wilderness Quest went great and a completion of the process we have been in for 5 yrs. I am reminiscing with all my past Quester's and Supporters from 1991 when I started with Charlie Thom. I remember clearly how we sat at Spirit Lake him saying, "When you do your groups you will do it different!" Since then I have done a flavor of different types. I knew like sweat lodge before I did my first Quest I needed to do one. I didn't understand the significance of either but as I did my first lodge in Turlock that started my unfolding of Sweat Lodge. Then being drawn to Vision Quest reading Sun Bears book getting a book from a local Indian group, I searched around who I wanted to do it with. Charlie was at my home in San Carlos on Halloween with a Full Moon I was chatting with him he said I will take you! Then it started a 13 day wilderness Quest that I co-leaded ( meaning I would chat with the people on their process) that was when he sat by the fire telling me about when I would do it on my own. I have found it to be a wonderful process of humility and gratitude that people trust in me. I feel the work is very profound and intimate. One of the areas which starts a huge process that woman understand that importance of their monthly moon cycle though it seems harsh that they can not be in Sweat Lodge but for many it is the start of an honoring of being woman. I still chat in session with some women who tell me how their Quest is still working them plus realizing how that monthly cycle is a big honoring still. I feel that is a great success for us women. Plus the other real blessing is when people begin to understand what it is to take on the Wisdom of being that Wise Woman or Elder Man.........that for me gives them the grace to be that Mentor as we move into our 50's- on that there is a blessing in our aging plus a responsibility to continue growth. I have also met people who elders have said to people who are unwilling to take on that responsibility .......YOU will never be an elder. I honor the process of continued physical work and emotional, spiritual work it is necessary to continue our own growth. We are seeing life as it is complex but remaining we have chosen a real deal life. So many of us are not living in ashrams, convents or cloistered existence so we are dancing the real dance of life being a human experience. It has many twists and turns with many blessings. I feel fortunate to have multiple experiences from my early childhood so I can relate on so many levels. I am really enjoying my clients that teach me so much. I feel very fortunate I generally have teachers in my massage practise and spiritual practise. These teachers need confirmation of their process I feel blessed that they trust me to be that person. I know that my journey this year of my gals from Japan, sweat lodge with many Japanese, plus my truck into the wilderness after not going since having the store a re-newing I needed. I know I have laid down some new medicine not really know the new beginning but very encouraged about it. I also look forward to the completion of 2011 as the leaves fall off of the trees here in Mt Shasta. I went into the Marbles hiked in then carried a pack out something I said I wouldn't do but also understand what it represented the responsibility then I fell in water so my pack was heavier with water. I also understood the emotional (water) responsibility that i would carry out. I wish I felt strong enough to enjoy the walk but it was more of getting out to get that pack off my back. I felt terrific when I came out, not sore. Then there was planned a lodge for some Japanese folks Sunday I was busy getting lodge ready a bit tired so I took a tumble down 2 stairs. I could feel my whole leg pull, knowing at the moment of falling this is what an accident is. The great news was I had Mom, Bennie, and Krissy to take care of the fire and people. They would also take care of me get water help me in and out of lodge. The interesting thing about it was I once more had to re-view where am I. That I would put ice on my leg no exercise for me I could hardly walk but did take care of myself. I also felt a renewed focus on my own process of where I want to put my energy. It was great going in the Marbles with these powerful medicine people sharing our stories of our successes and challenges. I had to sit and ponder that all. Then there was a gathering of friends at the Best of Shasta with Charlie Thom and loads of others we sang in ceremony touching on the journey of this path. Then the Quest came giving me a focus & strength of completion of this process. I am very excited about how everyone did it was such a fabulous experience. I also thanked our supporters and all those who held this energy at home taking care of our homes, pets and holding energy for another year. I have done groups with TuBears a real blessing, another at Gunboot with a couple helping me a fabulous experience, one in the Blue Ridge Mountains with my fire keeper Lone Wolf who totally rocks! I appreciate all of this! Thank YOU great spirit. Before the group arrived I had been told I need to have a new dress so the week before I ended up doing grocery shopping at Costco unexpected but ok. I also got material to make my new dress. As I was sewing my needle broke which I thought was no big deal. I went to get that needle kim said that sometimes that would make the machine off center I would know because the thread would keep breaking.........so you get where I am going......it did. I found myself Friday night on my way to Walmart in Yreka to buy a new sewing machine so I could finish my dress. Nothing in this life is a simple but the importance is being determined and having the energy to follow through. I did finish my dress at the coming in of Questers I wanted a picture of myself along with Questers throwing in their prayer ties, but my camera was foggy. This picture is at my friend Michael's in front of his fire a new beginning that too is unexpected this is the way the medicine works. I always say I am good at following the energy.
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