OM Amma!

Well after writing my last post we drove 5 hrs to see the divine Amma it was well worth it, we drove in the parking lot at 7:40 pm from Mt Shasta, they directed us to a private sweet lot with new stables being built mostly Indian parked there with children pregnant Mom's another beautiful sign of our own birthing...arriving shortly after the meditation, talk and blessings of the water. We received our token, received water then going to the temple with all the buzz a gentle soft energy. In the ride up some of the seva people were talking about how nice everyone is being we were almost driven to the door very little effort for much in the night. We had just had the Monks here from India doing the AMitabha Buddha of Light Sand Mandala also doing the White Umbrella Teaching.....then to see Amma on stage with this beautiful White Umbrella with Gold Trim in this life there are no accidents. Through the night I was aware of what gifts we have receive just by putting the effort to arrive at these blessed events. How life is inner twined with many teaching about Light and letting go of Negativity(White Umbrella Teaching) the monks explained the whole process of the Empowerment and here we are with the Divine Mother giving us such sweet powerful confirmation. Through the night there was laughter and a sweet flow of energy. I felt very alive and awake, I also felt the energy of my new baby grand daughter Tessa Lili Held the energy of blessing this old soul welcoming her to the divine. Seeing so many baby's and little children come for the blessings from Amma. We went up for our hug around 5 AM my mom taking Tessa's picture Amma giving her a big wet kiss for our baby.....as usual I am completely awe stuck in a time warp of what is really happening. What I do know I felt a focus in my prayers very direct clear communication to the Divine knowing more is possible. In the past I often would come in such sorrow or fear that Amma would say things like no worry....last time it was just feeling good for me she gave us both a blessing. This time felt like something big was achieved some big prayers and medicine were handled. When I started my spiritual journey I vowed that my spiritual would come first I vowed to follow my instructions which I have often questioning it saying are you sure I did it? or maybe I heard wrong, but knowing in my heart of hearts that is one thing I can do with some ease even if I feel completely unsure of the direction. It was when the message came to buy this building knowing that it was next to impossible and divine energy would have to help that divine energy was my son Josh signed on our building without his income this wouldn't happen, he put trust in me but I knew it was our destiny. Then we had these floods that first financially was a huge stretch putting the room together again, having to re-do the bathroom for ADA, I would ask are you sure....the answer was always the same....After putting in a french drain with not 1 but 2 sump pumps, having the whole grounds to clean up and do sod in the pouring rain. (never have done sod and no real desire to do sod) Then carrying 66 garbage cans of rock and dirt....now I was angry and saying are you sure? My hands were so sore I couldn't do massages or even do readings with such physical labor. I knew in my heart of hearts I was working through some very deep emotions and clear karma. So this night I felt that all that was behind us knowing we have done our work even with criticism with our current economic situations knowing we have done the best for 2 older women, in sales, being positive, advertising, and doing what ever it takes to achieve our goal. I was talking with our wonderful account Ann De Gray asking questions about this she was saying such positive things giving to push knowing we are doing the best. I appreciate those who have been so kind Jimmy Aquilla who was our contractor who even paid for our cement work till we could pay. We have been blessed with angels coming our way. Last year a sweet client Anne gave me a generous gift, then this year Katra moved forward with no questions asked just believing me our process. So sitting here with Amma knowing we have arrived in a special time. My dear Daniel Foor the gift of him doing his dissertation PHD how blessed I feel for the work we do together, really praying of how little we knew each other with his insight we are on our 3rd year Vision Quest. He is such a powerful teacher and a gift to the human race. When my Mom almost passed he supported me in such a kind way just checking in, for that I will always appreciate. As I sit here with Amma all of these stories are coming together one day soon writing about them with the powerful non reality I have experienced with each rising of my own Phoenix. And love I have been loved more then I care to admit it really is almost an embarrassment of how deeply I have been loved, often in those lonely moments I as a woman alone forget that just feeling my loneliness. I know that can't be taken from me I need to remember how blessed I am. When I was told in 1991 in a Vision to write 4 Blessd on my license plate I felt embarrassed but did follow directions, it has taken till these moments to only begin to understand the depth of the instruction and many others.