Almost Spring Time

It is hard to believe it has been so long since I wrote, time of diving inward is huge, while still moving? What is up with that? My running partner and myself did the run in Redding the beginning of the season. It was a beautiful day,nice enough to wear shorts, coming back to the snow is rather like the feeling of cutting loose into spring as the shoots are pooping up while the snow is flying. It has been an intense Winter Solstice in a good way, with earth changes. We are finding to our core what is important how is it we want to live here on Earth. It has been said the earth will continue to change till humanity changes, now is that possible. Is it possible for our government to clean out we all had the optimism with our new President but now there are those questions since we have entered another war, and the health bill has snags. We look at Congress and the Senate wondering if there is anyone who can say it isn't corrupt? A long time ago when I was carrying the big book of Recovery I felt that it is necessary to have drug and alcohol testing in those places, we are probably letting addicts run our country. We have since recognized the pharmacology how addictive they are. All in all I feel more positive the time of the completion of the decade of 2000 is making it more obvious that all must change, plus the economy has and still is hitting the middle class scrambling for basic existence. I know if you meditate, exercise, and do necessary spiritual practises we will make those changes in a big way. I know family's are moving in discontentment wanting that more communal group then we have to be accountable in a big way no more using people for our own advancement. How do I know this well I have offered myself as the sacrificial offering for those who are unable to make changes so they go after me, when in reality all I am doing is reflecting their stubbornness to continue in life as it is, silly humans. In therapy terms this is called projection if you are accusing others of whatever we need to look in our hearts to see if in fact it is ourselves that is doing the behavior. So...Rock on into Spring!

The Dive inward no matter what!

We have just come out of days of no power here in Mt Shasta, people still have no power here or in Mc Cloud. We first experienced this on Xmas Eve, then again New Years and now days of white and light are the Great White Brother-hood knocking on our psyche? Are we being forced to make life simple? Are we being shown that the journey for those of us who live here that communing with spirit is truly our destiny. While in I read "Loving Bones". Well I was drawn to this but not knowing why, it is all about a girl who has been murdered and who from the other side she chooses to communicate with. What a journey of confirmation that these things are part of the New NOW we are experiencing even from mid west to our wilder states. I know when my friend Jeannie Stone passed from leukemia she visited me often I didn't dare tell a soul till recently. I would have been on medication and locked up. She wasn't happy leaving her 2 little brothers, or her mom & dad.....but knew that her passing would have a profound effect on all of us. It taught me bunches, so now knowing that such things are common knowledge is such a relief for those of us who have had to hide out being invisible. It has been a profound time that is being born in this 2010. Once again a huge exodus of souls from the earth quake in Haiti a showing to each of us what is important. I wish I had more money to give also would love to go help in a physical sense, but I know on the inner our assisting those souls who have passed sending light to the country knowing that we are all connected. I had just finished the biography of Dr. Paul Farmer's work in Haiti how brilliant soul he is. What focus he has for such poverty/healing is commendable to say the least. His drive for knowledge, education and a basic command for helping these people leaves me feeling very insignificant with my own energy's doing so little. It is a powerful time to make choices that are so important to move ourselves forward in honest ways. I want each of us to do our own inventory of how can we be more in our own authenticity that would offer more to this life?

Blue Moon of 2009, Winter Solstice, New Moon

Here we are in the closing of the year, what is up for you? Is there unfinished business surfacing. A Healer friend talked today about how we are finally in that sacred body aligning many old life's into the New. That is partly why this close is so threatening with challenges. We have had our own, I am still writing you name it Congress, the President, Walley Herger (even called his office about this credit dilemma the guy there said just sell something, what an idiot has he seen the market.....not so easy, plus that isn't the best solution) It for us is a time of aligning our shadow fear focusing not on reality but the magic that is just before us. Mom has gone through first the flu and now another, partly emotional due to see things in reality coming out of a long denial. I am still working out running when I can with this weather, doing Zumba, did a 6 mile race for Thanksgiving. I keep telling my clients the importance of now with our physical body's to reeve it up with exercise to combat the higher vibratory rate that is moving through us. Being the time to get into better alignment getting out of denial acceptance and moving on. It is very important not to maintain negativity no matter what is dished out, once you know who or what it is let go let God and move to a higher place. I feel very fortunate that there is information about such things so available where even in the 90's we still had a bit of that Pollyanna approach of process till you fell into exhaustion, now we get the information do what is necessary and move beyond the drama. So I honor you and thank you for being on my blog reading my words focusing in 2010 to be more out there to have our current credit challenges taken care of so we have more time to focus on the business and doing more out there work. It will be a great awakening to ourselves and other in 2010. Peace, Love, and Wishing you JOY for the Holiday's and New Year! A HO!

Current Energy

We are all in the tale spin of the washing machine called life. It is an interesting time of self moving. We have interesting people coming in our store. A wonderful fellow from England sharing his knowledge with us. I made some flower essence for him our completion of roses which was great with sweet intentions for him and his friend. Life can be so easy and uplifting, then it can be so challenging in the same time. When life goes smoothly it makes it easy to enjoy but when we feel like we are swimming up stream that is another story. In 1992 in Vedic Astrology I entered Rahu which lasts for 18 yrs which is coming out in 2010, what I got it means is each step has that pull of what is going on. I started a relationship which lasted 6 yrs., it definitely has it's challenges. We gave up a business, but when to Findhorn a plus. Each has shown more of who I am what I am able to rise above, even in the spiritual challenges. Then bought this building that had it's challenges and now with the current banking there would be no way we could get a loan but we did. We ended up having some construction that we hadn't the finances for but we did it. Moving each step of the way, then we were able to re-fi with a great guy from Wells Fargo Michael Rivera.......then our renter left just as the market was clear down from the banks last year. We are still here hanging on so Rahu has taken it's course with me. I have glimmers of an easier way coming and I believe that too. I love the Hick's Ester claims it well worth keeping in the Vision, Go-Gratitude is another absolutely positive move to stay in. I love the clients I have I just need more, when people travel through I do reading suggesting phone sessions at a reduced rate, partly it is once we have that connection it is great to continue maybe once or twice a month. The people I do that with is amazing results for them, well worth the time and money. I see more of that happening but in the mean time the sooner thing shift the better for our store and our lives. Mom is at an age where she shouldn't have these challenges she is in our store to give her wisdom and insight. We have an Amma altar envisioning in us being in a flow of ease, so when we see her tomorrow at Devi Baba we are praying once again about that shift. When we had the construction and financial burden of it all she would say NO Worry.......No Worry, that would ring in our ears. Each step of the way she has been in our energy, now we need that last shift for our beautiful store and clients.....Life with ease and beauty to do our work. For Mom to be able to enjoy this time. I write about so many things, mantra's, women's groups, (my group has been going for 3yrs which everyone is fabulous) We had a few have wild deals that took our group to another level of partly confusion then more insight. I don't think that most realize the level of commitment and intimacy that really happens, if they did they would realize the importance of integrity that they owe to me and the group. When people miss behave or just drop off, there is a time of churning that goes on. I feel that we are women envisioning and dreaming in such a deep way that when that isn't respected it is such a shame. Our groups are confidential but also such wonderful deep work the mutual respect for the work is a must. I really love being there holding the energy for great things, it is some of my best work. People also are beginning to realize that phone work is so deep. I remember many years ago when I started doing that it wasn't popular, now things have changed. It can be really positive, conference calls are great for groups, so much can be done while you are sitting in what ever space, your car, at home, in the woods etc. So easy to do this work. I am up in the middle of night not sleeping pondering this all, so look forward to my writing on some of my adventures, when my book comes out about my first teachers, native American successes and challenges, what is really is about the Red Road, the Great White Brotherhood some of my first encounters, Crystal healer....the non reality that is as real as anything. Magic that can be created even in Rahu. Rahu made me become more determined in so many things including exercise, work ethics, being that nature women not really thinking anything was impossible endure no matter what. I got that card from the Wisdom Deck of the Crones which i found myself a bit resistance, because I feel like I have Endured....so why do I have to get a card, but there was this woman drinking tea with a toning bowl behind her with Mt Shasta in it which looks like me. My first journey to Mt Shasta in 78 connecting with an Avatar continuing my journey with our store. Then for my before turning 60 I Native American Church meeting praying in Gratitude about my life the firer keeper Corey gave me a bowl like that for my healing work, which blew me away any I use. So I am looking forward to a more
positive 2010. I feel we are ending the year with more insight and need to envision the good things even when we are challenged with our current situations. This week I spend an enormous time with banking,even wrote a letter to Congress about how terrible it is for small business, a part of Rahu I can't ignore. Credit Cards limits lowered when there are no late payments to such low deals just above by such a small amount of what is owed. I talk to people hanging on but having no way to proceed when there are in the red, no lending no matter what equity........plus a certain arrogance around it. Then there are some kind souls who understand but their hands are tied, even non-profit don't want to touch you unless you want to hire new employees now that would be great however when you can't pay yourself how in the world can you take a grant to get employees when what business's need is relief around consolidating existing debt at lower interest so we can get fluid. Yes being positive marketing moving in more advertising what ever it takes is great, but these other things are so time consuming to the small business, I am glad Mom can handle the store while I am doing this........damn Rahu.

Our Car Story

My old Buick was my first car at 16, it got me & my high school friends to the beach, driving various places then the rear end went out.
My new car was a Gem I was so shocked Andy who was to become my step dad sprung for the first Mustang 1964 red with a white convertible top, I liked him better.
My new car my Mom & Andy sold they gave me her T Bird most would be thrilled but I missed my Mustang. She got a better car.
My new used T Bird I traded in for 1966 Austin Heally with payments, I was working now.
My first family car was a Honda Accord my crazy husband thought it made sense, he was right.
My Heally the husband took the fuel pump out stored it under the bushes, when I left him I took my car.
My navy blue jeep was great for Siskiyou County going to the Marble Mountains, it loved the wilderness.
My new White Camero 1991 I took my son's with me car shopping the fellow flirted with me and them. Yes I bought my muscle car my son's were thrilled but my payments were high.
My son Zac bought a used El Camino he loved working on it with all new stuff, then sold it.
My son Zac got a better car a Camero he then takes it to College it gets stolen, he is heart sick. The insurance does well with him, he gets a better 1967 Camero blue electric.
My son Josh is in Washougal calls about a Chevelle it has been owned by just the seller. He fixes it up with air plane fuel everything is chrome big muscle car. It sets of car alarms when he drives by.
My son Josh's senior project is a streamliner for college engineering he designs each piece he will race in 2010, after getting side tracked with a Formula Car he sells. He is down at the Salt Flat the car he is on the crew breaks the world record.
http://www.wired.com/autopia/2009/10/spectre-infidel/

http://www.topgear.com/uk/car-news/land-speed-record-infidel-2009-10-13

My son Zac now has a wife , new baby Tessa buys a Mazda from the lot with leather uphosltery. He is so proud of all of it.
My Heally has seen better days Star known as Steve took pieces a part but doesn't put it together again, so till my son's or some one puts Humpty Dumpty together again it sits. Still my old friend!

Fall the Leaves are Just Turning

I can't believe I haven't written so much has changed in the Universe, with the beginning of the Summer Solstice going through the summer of Eciplses which were huge. In fact one on 9-9-09 was suppose to be one that hasn't occurred for any of us in this life time. There was a group who spent the night on the mountain singing drumming playing instruments then came by our store to check in telling the tales of how great it was, plus they got snowed on you could feel the energy that was very powerful. This group then went to Stewart Springs continuing the process. The following weekend on the 15 th was very powerful I can't remember a time as wonderful since the Harmonic Convergence in 1987. We also went to a memorial for Uncle Kenny we offered our pink roses for the ceremony it was at the Community Center for the whole weekend. Listening to the stories of how this Uncle touched so many peoples life was truly a gift. He met with Yogananda on the beach having him in the physical teach him about meditation. This has been the summer now we are into the fall with early cold weather feeling that life will never be the same. It is a new day. Mom and I have been going to Kirtan with Sadav it is wonderful on Wednesday nights which has helped our store (also having it play through the business day, we are selling the current CD that was made on 9-9-09) We also got a renter that is such a relief, we had to be in Gratitude for the showing up in a different type of business then expected that was also a new experience. I am taking a writing class up at Yreka which is awesome, it is one step beyond Artist Way stream of conciousness writing she has a great way of doing our 10 min or 20 min stream, very fun, very exposing.....whewww weeee so here I go to write that memiors. So between my running with my partner 4+ miles since May now writing. I feel it is an important to time to move forward with positive affirmations or thought stop that negative nonsense. Listen to CD's or web sites that support this Abraham's, Wayne Dyer, just move out of suffering no matter what is going on. We can all say ain't it aweful so what does that do? Give us more of the same, stop that old story, creat a fun new story raise your vibration......oh I know we are so use to OUR story it is huge to let it go. We are in a New NOW this summer showed us big time so think positive thoughts it doesn't have to be reality dream big talk about it creat it......yes Yes we can!

Wilderness Quest/June

We made it! It was a great Quest however June energetically was definitely a challenge, each person who called or asked keep feeling that churning of things not coming together. I told various people my feeling were things would not get going till after the Eclipse and Full Moon of July 7. So our gathering this year was wonderful full participation with ease, building the lodge, our Quester's going out early Wednesday morning, the camp cooks rocked ......a very sweet energy. Shannon is pregnant with her 3 rd child bringing her other 2 children Brady and Taylor added the family sweetness. We have many who would love to have a family then being blessed with such a sweetness was a big plus. Patrina and Shannon took care of everything that mommy's do, the kitchen is such an important nurturing place needing that type of energy to create the foundation for our group. Daniel and I had a wonderful flow each doing what is necessary to make it a safe and nurturing experience for all. The lodges were wonderful we had so much help this year from everyone carrying rocks, wood, blankets, tarps what ever was necessary we had helping hands with good attitudes. We decided to stay at the camp after the Quester's came in which was great we had music great conversation's and re-entry with ease. Sunday we did a fabulous closing circle then broke down the lodge also with ease. All of us go to the Goat for our fixes of food which is also great. Then Mom came in the store to open for our group they were more the generous for our store. She prepares the ceremonial food, comes to the lodge, she was amazing running lodge telling her story now every one's mantra is "and that ok too, " So she is happy to have the group come in to check them out after such a process of our Wilderness Quest. I also want to thank Jenn for getting a moon lodge together for the women this year it was beautiful and very powerful for our women to be honored for the power during their moon time.
We are really excited for our coming 4th year. Several years ago when I took a group to when we came out of Gun Boot Lake I was asked about Princess Diana and Mother Theresa who passed as we were gone. That was huge the amount of sorrow and loss that was experienced world wide. Then this year Michael Jackson was so fascinating the implications one of our themes this year was any range of addiction to see how when we are pre-occupied we are unable to stay in our hearts and really focus on our own authenticity. It could range from substance, people, food, adventure, business, debt or anything. It is also helpful for people to realize prescription drugs how dangerous they are. I feel we are only beginning to comprehend the magnitude of his passing. It has been the events like 911 or the Tsunami or Katrina to begin to interpret the significance that it has world wide, plus our current economic challenges. So being in the wilderness was such a gift with such divine beings to check out of the current climate of the world to once again be in nature, drink pure water, smell and feel the green of nature, oh yes and bless the bugs which after the wettest June in 120 yrs brought a new level of respect for our bug friends. We were praying the week before for good weather the spirits answered our prays Thank YOU, it was perfect weather. We were truly blessed!